can i give it up??

tomorrow is my third time to get anugerah in poly. the first time i get it was 2years ago, and i still remember what kind of feeling is that. the second time i get it was in the last year. i will never forget the pain brought to me when i hold that certificate. now is my third time to get that, but i definitely do not feel 0f any excited, happy, proud, or even have any expectation for this anugerah. for me, it just a piece of paper,but we have to spend a lot of effort to get it. i really feel tired for such kind of paper. haiz..........can i give it up???